My Corner of the Universe...

I've lost my will to live

Thu, 29 May 2008 05:57:21 GMT

Yes, it's true. I feel that I've lost my reason to live. As I approached home after leaving work tonight, I found my good kitty friend, Thor, dead at the side of the road. My heart is broken, and now I feel as if I have no one left to turn to for love and companionship. I tend to shy away from other people as the treatment I recived during my school years makes me fear the pain and/or ridicule they might inflict. Now, I am alone in the world, bereft of a companion. I weep profusely, and don't know when I might stop. I wonder if I should end my sad existance?

So here I place another marker, one of many I keep here on my journal of when my pets die. Anyone reading this (though I highly doubt anyone ever read my journal at all, as I never receive any kind of comments anymore) would probably wonder why I place such dated entries here. I sincerely hope that, in the future, should any conceivable form of temporal travel become viable that I might return to these markers and save my friends. The one exception I know is my dear Luna who I doubt any kind of intervention could assist as she died of old age. But my other cats, I think I can save them. I just have to change a little bit and maybe they wouldn't have died.

Hm, another year rolls by...

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 19:08:09 GMT

Yup... Birthday time again. So far so good, nothing absolutely horrible happening yet. Here's hoping.

Death of a beloved friend.

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 18:40:45 GMT

It's finally happened. My best friend since the age of six has passed on. My cat, Luna, has died. I got her when she was a kitten when I was about six years old, and she's been my constant companion since until this day. She was almost eighteen years old, so I suppose it was her time. I believe two things though; animals have souls, and souls reincarnate. So I hope sometime soon that my friend will find me in her next life, or if it's just not meant to be, I hope she finds me again in my next life.

Interstella 5555

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 02:45:46 GMT

Watch it, you'll love it, I know.

...

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 06:02:40 GMT

I've come to the realization that I'm going to need so very much therapy.
::sigh:: Now if only I'd develop DID and manifest a highly violent personality to combat a certain person in my life that I hate.

It's sad you know...

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 19:44:54 GMT

To have such a sucky existance that you don't ever have or can't ever think of anything positive to throw into a journal.

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Sat, 26 Aug 2006 21:27:22 GMT

.........

Why?

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 16:02:27 GMT

So... It's been a really long time since I've written. Then again, it's been a really long time since anything notable has happened in my life. Something happened this morning, something bad. Because of this thing.. I now must come to the conclusion that there is no goodness in the world. My mom had a little cat, his name was Ringo. Why name a cat "Ringo" you ask? Well, when he was a tiny kitten, he almost died. My mom didn't know what to do for him, so she just went the vet and got a bag of lactated ringers. Which is kind of food/water substitute that goes straight to the blood stream. Well this stuff saved him so we named him Ringo. This morning when we got up, mom went to wash clothes and found him. He had fallen down the crack between the washing machine and the dryer and was dead. The sweet little cat who was full grown but still pretty small for a cat is dead. If something like this can happen to something so innocent and sweet, there really can't be any goodness anywhere in the world. That's just how I feel.

Karma

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 11:01:28 GMT

At 4:30 something this morning my Dad apparently decided to have one of his random bitchathons. In his stomping through the house he stepped on a cat (Gizmo), which was one he liked very much an was getting quickly attached too. Needless to say he didn't notice what he did and continued to rant and bitch and etc. So when I got up I see the cat kind of flopping limply on the ground and pick him up. He was broken somehow and passed away from this world. I hope this trauma in someway triggers some infinitesimal spark of humanity he may or may not have inside him somewhere, thus making him a better person..somewhat..I hope. I don't want Gizmo's death to be in vain.

P.S. Zosong, I don't even know if you ever even glance toward my journal anymore since you stopped talking to me. How are things? I don't get to read anymore since you unfriended me. I'm sorry I upset you and hope you'll forgive me and talk to me again.

So..yeah..

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 19:25:30 GMT

Happy Birthday to me. Whatever.

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 08:49:29 GMT

If there is someone on your Friends List who makes your world a better
place just because that person exists and who you would not have met
(in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same
sentence in your journal

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 02:28:42 GMT

Just to say that I'm alive. That is all.

For Santa.

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 19:58:43 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In September on a flight to LA, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points). In July I ruled Canada as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). In May I turned kittythepook in for running naked in the mall (3 points). Last Tuesday I gave zosong a wet willie, then I took it back (-5 points). Last Wednesday I gave kittythepook a kidney (1000 points).

Overall, I've been nice (1658 points). For Christmas I deserve a new dolly!

Sincerely,
OxStormTigerxO

Haha!

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 21:59:44 GMT

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 02:40:27 GMT

I found a site that makes cute little Gaia Online chibis, so I made this guy, what do you think? Golden laurels or not? =3

Here's the link: Gaia Dream Creator

Neat stuffs...

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 21:57:51 GMT

Well, as of this Wednesday I will offcially be "gainfully employed". Woe is me! I'm going to be a server at my local Pizza-Hut. Hurray, I'll be making $2.15 an hour +tips. As I was told by the manager people tip well at that particular resturant and so it's not unusual to take $50 to $60 home a night. I'm skeptical.

"How doth I hate thee? Let me count the ways."

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 05:49:10 GMT

I hate my father with the fury of 10,000 suns.
Not one day goes by without me wishing he were dead.
No, not one single day. I usually make this wish multiple times per day, and when I say multiple I mean multiple as in hundreds of thousands of times a day.

October 16, 2005. 12:45 AM

Hey as a matter of fact, before I had a chance to post the other entry, he proceeded to jump on me and beat me. Owwies. Punched me in the right ear, which is hurting something fierce right now, and he punched me in the gut a few times. Oh and let's not forget the head shots. He got me a few times in the skull over said ear he punched. I hope his hand is broken, bastard. He then tried to attack my mom. People. I'm telling you he's crazy from the drugs he did. So if I suddenly vanish one day, you know what happened.

World of...Rudecraft?

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 04:42:13 GMT

Yeah... Everyone knows World of Warcraft. If you don't..what rock have you been living under you poor, poor deprived child!?

Anyways the point of this post. People can be so unnecessarily rude. Really. Uber bitch rude.

For instance. Yesterday or the day before depending on what time I finish this post, I was taking my tauren through the Barrens with a friend. We were trying to get to the Neutral Auction House in Gadgetzan. You see my main characters are alliance and I had some, how you say, exclusive horde profession recipes that I wanted to take with my friend and have said friend put them on the auction block so my Alliance could get them. Now you have to understand that I was having problems with my internet that night. I kept loosing connection and waiting for it to stabilize so I could log on again.

During one of these iffy moments I logged back on to suddenly being dead. Yes, folks, in the lag between me getting control of my tauren and the load screen going away I was attacked by Alliance NPCS who basically one-hit killed my poor level 13 shaman. Now, whilst I was dead an Alliance warlock by the name of "Zesty" was hanging around my corpse and laughing at me and pointing at me. Once I got my life back she (I say she as the character was female. The player could be male) proceeded to repeated use the /rude emote at me and my friends. Now I remembered her name, and when I logged on I friends listed her so I could have a little chat. This happened the day after as I didn't see her on line in the interim. What follows is said conversation.*

Me: "Hi I just wanted to let you know it's exceedingly rude to laugh at a low level character who got killed as they were logging on. You know, just so you know for future reference."
Zesty: "sorry what did i do and who is this?"
Zesty: "and btw i dont think i have laughed at anyone since i been loged on"
Me: "Oh you don't know me. You know my Tauren though. You laugh, point, and rude motioned as the wandering outriders killed me as I logged on. It was yesterday."
Zesty: "oh yea now i remember na its wants u dying it was t funny to see an alance npc kill yea"
Zesty: "someone was on a quest with an high lvl alance npc is who killed u"
Zesty: "trust me it was funny. to see at lest"
Me: "One or two laughs tops. It didn't require the repeated rude motions. I was just trying to get to the Neutral AH so I could get some horde exclusive recipes to my Alliance characters without spending X gold each"
Zesty: "yea sorry its not every day u see alance npcs run across a the screen and kill someone in 1 hit"
Me: "Anyways, thank you for your time. I just wanted to get that of my chest. Have a lovely day."
Zesty: "u too and next time look for running alliance npcs :P"

*(Zesty's text is entirely unedited. My text is edited for minor grammatical errors like inverse lettering and double words)

So there we go.. That's Zesty on Scarlet Crusade. Can you say "rude much"? Sure. I knew you could.

Fabulous Secret Powers

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 18:57:16 GMT

I laughed so much I cried.

Clicky-click

Neat picture I found somewhere.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 02:00:24 GMT

Clicky-clicky

And...I had a bottle of cranberry juice fall on my big toe...much pain...much blood...owwies..

Flying Spaghetti Monster!!!!

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 23:43:47 GMT

Look upon Him and be afraid!

Sadness

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 23:26:55 GMT

This has been the worst day I've ever had the...anti-pleasure of experiencing. I lost my irreplacable Fortune Egg. For those of you that don't know, the Fortune Egg is an ammo item from FFXI that one gets by participating in a Easterish holiday event. You can only have one at any one time. And now mine is gone. My cat ran across my keyboard while I was fighting a quadav and it threw my egg before I could stop it... Now I know some of you peoples are going to be all "What the? Over an Egg!?" but it had great sentimental value to me as I've had it since the first egg event that I did with my best friend who basically..never plays FFXI anymore. Now...I've lost all urge to ever play again. I sincerely hope that when the time rolls around again that they'll make them available again.....

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 03:49:35 GMT

Lug
Indeed, you are 70% erudite, 95% sensual, 83% martial, and 58% saturnine.

The God Lug certainly cut an impressive image. Lug was a mighty hero, often portrayed as a blond muscle-man, all decked out in magnificent armour complete with helmet and shield of gold.

As the story goes, Lug came to the glorious palace of The Dagda expecting to be welcomed as a full fledged member of the "God Fraternity" right there on the spot, no questions asked. But the palace guard did question him. In order to take a seat among the immortal Gods, one had to possess a skill not already covered by one of the deities. When the guard asked Lug to name his unique specialty, the mighty hero declared that he was particularly competent in the art of war. The guard shook his head. They already had a War God. Lug then called out several of his many expert abilities. Could they use a God of healing? Nope. A Water God? Nope. How about a God of magic? Of music? Commerce? Nope, nope, and nope. Finally reaching his wits end, Lug lashed out at the guard and demanded to be admitted since none of the Gods were masters of all skills like he was. This worked. Soon he became the greatest of all the Celtic Gods.

The Fifteen Gods

These are the 15 categories of this test. If you score above average in …

…all or none of the four variables: Dagda. … Erudite: Thoth. … Sensual: Frey. … Martial: Mars. … Saturnine: Mictlantecuhtli. … Erudite & Sensual: Amun. … Erudite & Martial: Odin. … Erudite & Saturnine: Anubis. … Sensual & Martial: Zeus. … Sensual & Saturnine: Cernunnos. … Martial & Saturnine: Loki. … Erudite, Sensual & Martial: Lug. … Erudite, Sensual & Saturnine: Coyote. … Erudite, Martial & Saturnine: Hades. … Sensual, Martial & Saturnine: Pan.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 30% on erudite

You scored higher than 97% on sensual

You scored higher than 96% on martial

You scored higher than 50% on saturnine

Link: The Mythological God Test written by Nitsuki on Ok Cupid

Right! So a how about a Mage recap/update?

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 00:26:24 GMT

Soooo, a couple of weeks, I think, have passed, and I thought it might be time for a recap/update on all that great Mage stuff that White-Wolf has been putting out. So, for any interested parties, here you go.

Mythic History

Paths

Advantages, Awakening, etc.

Gazing Into You (demo part 1)

Magic in Action

Driving Angry (demo part 2)

Signature Characters

Cover/Cosmological Geography of the Magical World

Nest of Vipers (demo part 3)

Siren's Song (demo part 4)

Mage Delayed (press release)

Mage Antagonists

Made Men (demo part 5)

Journal of Arctos

Oh Amazon, how do I love thee?

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 22:28:09 GMT

Mwahaha, so I just figured out how to do wish lists on Amazon.com. Heh....so all you people reading, go buy me something. No really, go buy me something. Naw, I'm just kidding. Or am I? Heheh.